Tuesday, January 30, 2007

I don't Understand!!!



Yesterday, was the last day of the ASEAN Summit. And today, my heart is starting to feel heavy. I don’t know why, but I know that there’s really something about it. I’m like a ship without a captain right now. I don’t know where to go. And then I get my wallet and got a note.
“Have you ever experienced a time in your life when you felt so empty for no reason? Have you ever felt so down but you just can’t tell why? Have you ever felt like the world suddenly spins around you and you are caught in the middle going nowhere? Weird isn’t it? But that’s the beauty of being human. It is knowing that there is a purpose for each existence. And whatever that, maybe, it is also the reason why we still wake up breathing each morning to discover that missing piece of puzzle that would make our lives complete. Have a nice day!"

That was the letter given to me by my teacher when I was still in grade six. I realized that it fitted to my situation right now. And it's true. I am looking for something that I don't know. Maybe because it's already the 3rd periodical test tomorrow. Maybe. That would be a 3-day pressure for me. But last Sunday, I have already requested a prayer to pray for me about our periodical test during our Bible Study time. I feel better when I remembered about our Bible Study. My week is not really complete whenever I miss one Sunday of going to Church. Maybe because it's a part of my life. Anyway, we are going to have half day today. We only have half day, and I want the day to go faster so that everything will be finished. But I know it's impossible for me to have that wish. I can't do anything but to face it. I have to face all the pressures, all the struggles, all the challenges, and many others. It's already our 3rd periodical test, and I have to face it. Maybe our third periodical test is something that worries me. Am I prepared for the test? Am I ready? Do I have all the things that I needed for the test? Maybe. But my most important weapon is that Christ in in me. I know that even if I'm in the ground of confusion, He will never forsake me. He won't leave me regardless...... The bell has already rang. So it's already time to go home. I'm calling the day, a heavy day. Maybe tomorrow there are more......

Verse for the day:

Trust in the Lord with all your heart. Never rely on what you think you know. Remember the Lord in everything you do, and He will show you the right way. ( Proverbs 3:5-6 )

I'm hoping that tomorrow I will have an exciting day! But I'm sure that at the same time, it's also a pressure day. Periodical is fast approaching so I have to get ready.

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